As my time here at seminary is coming to a close, for some reason I have spent the last several weeks randomly reading journals and blog entries that I have written over the past three and half years. It is so amazing to read and remember all the things the Lord has brought me through, and to see how many of the unanswered questions I struggled with over time have been answered.
On January 13, 2007 I wrote,
“Yesterday I left for Houston a day earlier than planned because I was trying to beat the winter storm that was fastly approaching the metroplex. But an hour out of town I hit some of the worst rain I have ever driven in. It was already dark and hard to see, the wind was blowing really hard, the rain was pouring down so quickly that inches of rain was still on the roads, I was driving as slowly as I could, my windshield wipers were going as fast as they could, and yet I could not see. Then for just a moment in time I felt my SUV hydroplane on top of the water. I then took the first exit off the road which landed me in the middle of nowhere between some factories. I frantically called my parents to see if they could find out if the end of the storm was ahead or if it was raining all across Texas. I will admit I was afraid, yet constantly was praying to just get somewhere I could rest. And in someway I feel like that has been my life lately. It feels as though it's been raining for awhile, and I just want God to tell me that somewhere up ahead close by it's going to clear out and I can rest from it all. But the reality of life is that there will be rain, and sometimes it will feel that we are hydroplaning and have no control, but God is in control. Eventually rain does subside and the sunshine will appear but we have to go through things to learn our dependence upon the Lord and not what is around us, what we see ahead, or our circumstances. It hasn't been necessarily a time of great trial in my life, but yet uncertainty. Times where I can't seem to see the road or what is ahead, and even where I'm at seems shaky. But God is quick to remind me of Psalm 32:8, one of my life verses He gave me as I graduated from college that says, "I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will counsel you and watch over you." So when the time is right, the rain will clear and I will see the road up ahead, until then I just have one choice, to depend on the Lord.”
And now, here I am, the rain has cleared and I am able to see the road ahead. The Lord is faithful. He is a good God, and I am so thankful that I can trust in Him even when the next storm comes.
