Getting past emotions and seeing God

It is a well known consensus that women are more emotional than men. Whether or not that is actually true is still up for debate. But there is no doubt that women are emotional, and I am definitely no exception! I left for church this evening really feeling so blessed. Blessed that even though life may be difficult and busy at times, I have a wonderful Savior and Lord who loves me and has saved me. But as I drove home from church I found out that my parents had our family dog put to sleep. I was on my way at the time to IHOP to study. I got to IHOP and began reading my assigned reading for class which happened to be on the Doctrine of God. And right there, I basically broke down and started crying. How embarrassing is that. I was trying to cover it up by keeping my hair in front of my face. I read some, and then would think about my dog. And then thoughts of my dog led to everything else that didn't seem to be going right in life at the moment. The tears flowed down. My exaggerated thoughts led to me thinking that my life just didn't seem to be going as I thought it should be going. I'm not doing what I think I should be doing. I'm not surrounded by the people I think I should be surrounded by, and the tears flowed down. The thoughts of a blessed life that filled my thoughts just hours before had quickly vanished. My focus had gone from God to myself. But little did I realize that I was reading pages after pages after pages (during this emotional downpour in the middle of IHOP) about who God is. The God that created all, and is in all, and is all, is also a God who protects me, guides me, and surrounds me with His presence. He loves me, and has died for me. A God that is so indescribable and incomprehensible is also the God that puts his loving arms around me and holds me. It was then that I realized that I needed to get past the emotions and see God. Not that tears are not what we need sometime or that we are supposed to be unemotional, but that we need to see God, and to not let our pity party downpours get the best of us. I was on the right track before, I am blessed. Blessed beyond what I deserve or could imagine. And even though I don't always understand God's plan or see His hand, I know that I can trust Him and that is all that matters.